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P.E class

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Hello lovelies! So today I wanted to write a blog post but I just couldn’t think of anything that I felt like writing, but then I remembered that I have countless embarrassing stories from my sports class! Therefore, I am going to share a couple of stories with you.

So like most schools, it’s usually compulsory to have to do sport as one of your classes. I have to, and it’s probably one of the subjects I loathe the most. I mean, I am just not that coordinated and every lesson, I usually seem to make a fool of myself somehow. It would probably be unusual for me not to embarrass myself during a P.E class.

One time, the course we were doing was basketball and I was actually quite enjoying it. I wasn’t the best at it, but I usually managed to play it okay. So one day, I was playing basketball and I was doing a pretty damn good job at it too. I was also really excited because it was like the first time I was actually not making a huge fool out of myself in sport. I was getting a few goals and the teacher and some of my other class mates seemed to be pretty impressed. So I’m dribbling the ball up the court, literally so close to getting a goal when I feel someone on my tail. It turns out it was one of my opposing players and former ex best friend from primary school. Let’s just say that she wasn’t the nicest of girls and when I stopped being friends with her because she treated me like crap, she kind of began to hate me. Oh and did I mention that she’s really popular now and kind of intimidates me? Anyway, so she’s on my tail but I wasn’t giving up, I was going to get a goal. I kept running until… boom! I’m body slammed to the ground and everyone in the gym went silent. Oh and because my opposing player didn’t realise that she’d pushed me down (I think), she kept running for a bit which made me slide against the floor, which also made a loud squeaky sound on the floor as I kept being pushed. She eventually stopped and realised what she had done and immediately apologised, so at least she said sorry. I don’t think she meant to do it, but damn that hurt. Plus, I was majorly embarrassed as the whole class was staring at me!

Another time was when I was in the change rooms changing into my sport uniform when my friend told me that my crush (who is a major hottie by the way) was standing outside near the change rooms. He must’ve had a sport class at the same time as me so he was probably waiting for his teacher. Anyway, once I was dressed, I walked out of the change room and strutted past him with my friends. I thought, hey, maybe he would see me for once! Anyway, we walked into the gym and from where he was, he could see inside of the gym and he happened to be looking at us. While the rest of the girls in my class were waiting for the teacher, they were shooting hoops with basketballs so I decided to join in and look sporty in front of my crush. This obviously did not go to plan. I grabbed a ball, and began to run up to the hoop. I was pretty sure I looked good but then, I tripped over my own foot as I was running and nearly fell over but luckily didn’t. I was just hoping he didn’t see that. But no, that didn’t stop me, I kept running and hurled the ball upward, aiming to get a goal. Unfortunately the ball did not go in the hoos and I had managed to trip over my own feet again just a I took the shot, which this time made me fall over. I fell face first onto the gross gym floor as my friends ran over to me to see if I was okay. I then looked over to my crush where he was laughing at me with his friends. Then I decided that I couldn’t get more embarrassed enough so I just layed on my back on the ground and decided to stay there for a while. I practically died of embarrassment!

I hope you all enjoyed reading about my sport class mishaps and I hope they made you laugh a little! And just remember, embarrassing moments make the best memories.

Stay beautiful,

Just a girl with no clue, is logging off xx

 

 

 

 

Life can be hard

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Hey everyone, I’m back on my blog! I know, I haven’t been on here for ages and I’m really sorry for that 😦 Let’s just say that a lot of bad things have been happening to me lately and it’s just really hard to do this and deal with everything else which has been going on. But I’ve come to realise that this blog has actually helped me deal with things, and that I enjoy it too much to just give it up for a small rough patch that’s happening in my life.

So as I previously said, a lot of bad things have happened to me lately. I’m not going to go into detail, but I’ve just been very down for the last couple of weeks. Some unfortunate things have happened to one of my siblings which just has affected my family very significantly, along with friend problems and having a bad relationship with my dad. It’s just like all of these problems came at once and it got a bit too much. And none of these issues have been solved either, but I’ve decided to be optimistic.

I have been moping around, feeling sorry for myself for about a month and I’ve had enough. I’m always faking my happiness, saying that I’m fine, laughing to cover my sadness and I feel like I haven’t smiled for real in a very long time. But now, I’m not going to fake being happy, I’m going to be happy. Yes, I have a lot of bad things going on at the moment but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be happy for all of the good things in my life! This bad place I’m in right now, it will pass and it will become just a little tiny bump on the road of my life. I’m going to be happy and I’m not going to let my sadness take over my whole life. Now, I’m not saying that it’s not okay to be sad, because being sad once in a while is just part of life. I’m saying that you shouldn’t let it control you or your happiness.

So when you are going though a tough time, just remember that it will pass, just remember that in twenty years time, when you’re rich and famous, this tiny thing that’s happening right now will hardly mean anything to you! I want every one who reads this post to know that you are strong, and the sadness WILL go away.

I hope you all enjoyed this post and I will definitely be posting more very soon 🙂

Stay beautiful,

Just a girl with no clue, is logging off xx

 

 

 

Granny pyjamas?

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Hello everyone! I know, I’m a horrible, horrible person because i haven’t posted anything in a whole month. I feel terrible. Trust me, I haven’t forgotten about this blog at all because I always think, ‘that would be good to write on my blog’ or ‘I should tell everyone about what just happened on my blog.’ I just never actually end up writing it! I think you jut get so caught up in life, that you forget to do some of the things that make you the happiest. And this blog is honestly one of the best things I have. So I am so sorry that I haven’t been around lately, I promise you that will change!

So today I want to talk to you about a very embarrassing and uh… interesting experience I had lately. Every year, at my school, we have this competition when people of about groups of twenty have to do a perfromace and sing a song in front of the whole school. And then the teachers that are the judges, decides who wins. I have done it every year since i’ve been in high school and it is such a great experience! Although, many people say that it’s only for losers and its ‘not cool’ to do it. But I still do it anyway because I want to get involved and enjoy my high school experience as much as I can!

So of course this year I signed up and my group leaders decided that we were doing the song Bad Blood by Taylor Swift… But with a slight twist. Basically, it was set in an old peoples retirement home and it was all about us bickering with each other. It was a hilarious idea. So we practiced it for weeks but then came the day I realised that I would hvae to wear old peoples clothes in fron of the whole entire school! I tried to not let it worry me too much, but you have to admit, I was pretty much commtting social suicide. So I asked my mum for some help with choosing out a costume and she said I can wear some floral pyjamas that looked like a grandma would wear with my pink dressing gown that I have had since forever. So I thought that would be a pretty good costume and I actually loked like an old lady when I tried it on.

The performance day came and I was ready… but kind of nervous that I was going to be dressed a a granny in front of th whole school. Goodbye to any possible guy I could date… Goodbye to people thinking I was normal…

But before the performance, I realised that other peoples thoughts didn’t matter! I am going to go out there, try my best and own my granny pyjamas! That’s exactly what I did. Of course i heard a lot of laughter and whispering but I still went out there, gave it my very best shot and I was proud to be standing in front of the whole school in granny pyajams. The performance went smoothly except when I fell over back stage and held everyone else up… But something like that was bound to happen to me, I;m just glad it wasn’t worse. Afterwards, while we were waiting for the results, I was excited to find out if we were going to win. I actually thought we had a really good chance.

So then, they announced the winner and it was… US! We were so happy that all of our hard work and sacrificed lunch times for rehearsals was worth it! Once again, I ran up onto the stage with my granny pjs still on along with everyone else and received our award! All I can say is that embarrassing myself was totally worth it.

So to all of you… Please don’t be afraid to do something in high school or anywhere else just becase of what other people think. If you enjoy doing it, then do it! Because in the end we will look back on these memories when we made a fool out of ourselves and be proud of them! So when an opportunity comes up, ask yourself, what would I regret more? Doing this or not doing this? The choice is yours.

Stay lovely,

Just a girl with no clue, is logging off xx

Growing up as a teenager

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Hey everyone 🙂 I just want to start off by saying a huge thanks to all of the people who commented on my last post, they were all just so lovely! So thanks to all of you, I think I am going to start a YouTube channel. Maybe on my next post, I might ask you guys for some ideas for my first video!

So today I want to talk about growing up, because I feel like this is just huge thing in everyone’s lives, especially teenagers. When you look up the term ‘growing up’ on Dictionary.com, it says that it is to develop into an adult. So that’s the short definition, but I think that it is way more than that.

Growing up as a teenager is going to the movies by yourself, going to your first High school party, getting your first boyfriend (even though you may be in grade 7 and you barely talk to him), catching the bus by yourself, getting your first job, ect… You see, these things my not seem like a lot, but it’s the little things that count the most. I think it’s good when you’re a teen to be more independent and grown up, but in society, we are sometimes told the wrong things about it. Like the other day, someone made fun of me for bringing a juicebox to school. Yes, I get it, I’m a teenager, but that does not mean I have to stop bringing juiceboxes to school! Juiceboxes are like the best things ever, and frankly, I do not understand why people class them as childish. Also, according to society, gong to heaps of parties also classifies as being mature. I know, it’s fun to go to parties, but that doesn’t mean you can’t watch your favourite disney movie on a Saturday night every now and then instad of going to a party!

I don’t know if i’m explaining this very correctly, but i’m trying to say that it’s okay to grow up, but it’s also okay to still be childish every once in a while. Obviously, once you get to a certain age, you will have to be responsible and a lot more independent, but while we’re young, we should embrace it! We don’t have to stop bringing juiceboxes to school, or not watch our favourite Disney movie, or do whatever you think is fun that other people call childish. Just be you! The independent, grown up, childish, weird, amazing you!

Thanks for reading and don’t forget to comment your thoughts on this post 🙂

Stay beautiful,

Just a girl with no clue, is logging off xx

Should I start a youtube channel?

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Hey everyone! I am so, so, so, so sorry that I haven’t been online lately, I feel so bad! What happened was that my computer broke and I had to get a new one, it’s a very long story. But to give you the short version, I stepped on my laptop and broke the screen, I also managed to give it a virus… Lets just say that my parents weren’t very happy. So I hope you all aren’t too mad at me for not being online!

Anyway, today I want to ask you all a question. Should I start a YouTube channel? I guess you sort of knew that since it was in the title, but I thought I should repeat it again… just in case.

So of course, I’m a typical teenage girl who watches Zoella, Thatcherjoe, Casper Lee, Troye Sivan ect… on YouTube. I just love what they do, they make people happy which is something that I would love to pursue. I love to entertain people, make others happy, make others laugh and I LOVE talking, which is a huge bonus! I’ve been thinking about this for a while now and I just can’t make up my mind.

On my channel, I would: Talk about my funny/awkward experiences, do challenges but add a twist, Maybe makeup tutorials (I don’t think I’m as good as Zoella!), do hair tutorials, fashion lookbooks, video normal everyday encounters but make them fun, pranks, prank calls, response videos and just things like that. But I don’t want to be like every other youtuber, I want to make my channel more unique. I want to be different from other youtubers so that people don’t get bored of the same thing.

Although I seem like I’m ready to create a channel… I do have my doubts. The first one is that i’m worried that if my friends or even just people i know (like the popular people) see my videos, they will judge me. I know, it sounds stupid. But I want to be myself on my channel and I’m not really myself when i’m at school. I was thinking if I do it, I just won’t tell them. But at least one of them is sure to encounter my channel one day. My second doubt is that maybe i’m better online when I’m anonymous. I will probably stay anonymous on here, but the internet can be a scary place and if i’m on YouTube, people may judge me… a lot. The last doubt is what if i’m not different from other youtubers and people won’t enjoy my videos which is the opposite of what I want to do.

So I just realised that all of those ‘doubts’ had to do with what people thought of me. Wow… Society has really messed me up. So also, maybe I care way to much of what people think of me to create a YouTube channel.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed reading this and I promise to post more for now on! Please comment your thoughts and answers to my question, it will be greatly appreciated! Should I let my doubts hold me back from starting a YouTube channel? Let me know what you think.

Stay beautiful,

Just a girl with no clue is logging off x

10 completely random facts about me

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Hello everyone, good morning, good afternoon, good evening or good night! Thank you, thank you and thank you for all of your comments and likes on my last post! It really helped me and I’m glad I have a place where I can just vent and be myself for a while, you know?

So today, on a more positive note, I will be telling you some facts about me. All of these facts are going to be completely honest and I hope you enjoy!

1. I am a blonde, and yes, I do have blonde moments even though that sounds completely stereotypical! I just have to admit that I can be a bit ditzy at times!

2. When I finish high school, I hope to go to a university with the best writing courses possible. It doesn’t matter where in the world this university may be, I will get into to it. (As you can tell, I’m a little determined.)

3. I hate when people eat loudly! It completely grosses me out, I mean, can’t people just chew quietly?

4. I believe that we are all here for a reason, that we can make a difference in this world… No matter how small that change may be.

5. I have accidentally shaved one of my eyebrows off. For more information on that, have a look at my blog post called ‘Eyebrows…’

6. I am completely uncoordinated, the only things I am not completely uncoordinated at are writing and netball. Apart from those two things, I’m pretty hopeless.You should’ve seen me try gymnastics in P.E last year, my friends thought that it was hilarious… unlike me.

7. I tend to embarrass myself at least ten times a day… It’s sort of like a second nature to me now.

8. All the guys who I have been with or I have had a crush on are jerks. It’s literally like I am attracted to players and losers.

9. I am not happy with the way I look due to the fact that I don’t look like the perfect girl who society tells us to be. I try to be happy with myself though, because I know that we are all beautiful in our own way, even if I sometimes don’t think that.

10. Lastly, I am totally against popularity and labels. We all get labelled for things that we’re not and I don’t think that’s right. I also think that it doesn’t matter if you’re ‘popular’ or not because frankly, popularity is just something to make some people feel happy with themselves and others feel sad.

So that is ten random facts about me, I hope you enjoyed this blog post and remember to comment! Maybe tell me some facts about you, or some facts that we both may have in common.

Remember to stay fabulous,

Just a girl with no clue, is going offline xx

It’s always me

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Hey everyone 🙂 So this blog post won’t be as positive as my other ones, but I really just need to vent.

Today didn’t go so well and I don’t understand why this happens to me. My friends today weren’t acting as they usually do and I just don’t get it. They all decided to pick on me and make fun of me, because… Oh I don’t even know why! They were just being immature and doing small things to annoy me and they even said that it was fun annoying me. I mean, what does that even mean?! They were throwing stuff at me, pulling down my socks, messing with my hair and saying how embarrassing I can be! I just didn’t think that was as funny as they thought it was. They’re not usually like this and they’re great friends, so why now? They were probably joking but I don’t think they understand that it’s really rude to do stuff like that to someone. I was just laughing it off and nicely telling them to stop, but inside I was getting really annoyed and kind of upset.

So I came home from school feeling bad about myself when I realised something. Every friend group I’ve ever been in, even in primary school, they always tend to make fun of me. No matter who they are, or how old we are, I’m always the one being picked on. And they don’t do it to anyone else in the group, it’s just me. It’s always me. So why? Is it because I get affected easily? But I’m sure that someone else in our friend group would get even more affected, so why would they choose me? Or is it because I’m just me, the stupid, embarrassing, awkward friend with no clue? I just don’t know.

Thank you so much for reading, it feels really good to get that out! And always remember to comment, I would love to hear your opinions on this post.

Stay beautiful,

Just a girl with no clue, is logging off xx

stop caring and be yourself!

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hello to all of you lovely people! I would just firstly like to say thank you to everyone for commenting on my last post, it really helped me understand anxiety more and thank you for all of your advice you gave me.

Okay, so today I want to talk about how we all care about what other people think of us way too much! I mean, my world pretty much revolves around what others think, doesn’t yours? I put on makeup because I care about what others think, I brush my hair because of what others think and I sometimes don’t act like myself because I care about what others think of me.

We all do it, it’s practically human nature, but that still doesn’t make it right. I am so sick of thinking that everything I do, I will be judged for it. The truth is that people will judge is for things we do, for the people we hang out with, for what we wear, ect… That’s just life.

Imagine a world when we could just be ourselves and no one judged us, a place where we didn’t have to ever worry about what people thought. It would be amazing and most people would be a lot happier than they are now, but life’s not perfect. And we don’t live in a world that’s like that, so we have to learn to deal with it. Life isn’t some fairytale where we don’t care about what other people think and that’s just how it is.

I believe that we can still live in a world that’s just a little bit better though. Because I believe that we can live a life where we can not care about what other people think. I can’t promise you that people won’t judge you because they probably will, but I can promise you that you will be a lot happier.

I’ve decided that I am going to try to not care about what others think because really, what’s the point? The only thing i’ll get out of it is feeling bad and embarrassed about myself and who wants that? Not me. Just be yourself and if people judge you for that, then that’s their problem.

Stay beautiful, (while still being yourself!)

Just a girl with no clue, is logging off xx

Is this Anxiety?

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Hello to you amazing readers! Today I want to talk about anxiety.

I’m confused. Do I have anxiety or don’t I? I really just want to know. In the dictionary Anxiety is defined as: a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. Anxiety disorder is defined as: a psychiatric disorder causing feelings of persistent anxiety.

But I believe that there is way more to it than just those definitions. We are told that many teenagers suffer from it and it’s completely normal, but how do we even believe that? I don’t know if I have normal anxiety that everyone else should have or if it’s more than that. I feel as if all of my friends are way calmer than me at times. I feel like I’m the only one worrying about stuff.

I worry if there’s a big crowd of people and I have to say, ‘excuse me.’ to get through. I worry about having to talk to one of my teachers, or accidentally saying the wrong thing, or accidentally opening my car door into another car parked next to us, I worry if I think my friend is mad at me but she actually isn’t, I worry about a lot of things like that and im not sure if it’s normal.

My worrying also holds me back from many other things. Like going to a friend’s house if I don’t know their parents that well, or making a fool out of myself at parties, or even just going on a camp. If you have read one of my previous posts about music camp then you will know that I went and had a great time. But I didn’t tell you that I was freaking out before hand. I was worried people would be making fun of me because of the clothes I would be wearing, or how I wore my hair or even just what my pyjamas looked like! I know, I’m a freak.

I also have these weird panic attack things. I don’t if they are actually panic attacks but i’ll describe to you how I feel when i’m having one. I completely freak out, I start to think of all the worst possible scenarios, my breathing becomes harder and all I want to do is cry. If I’m in public I obviously won’t cry while it’s happening but when i’m alone I do. The room becomes blurry and I can’t breath properly, and sometimes hyperventilate, but then I sometimes don’t.

I honestly don’t know if that’s a panic attack or anything but that’s what happens to me when I start to worry and things get a bit too much.

But the thing is, i’m really good at hiding it. Let’s just say that I do something really embarrassing in public and my friends might be like, ‘Don’t be embarrassed or anything, they’re losers if they laugh.’ I will then just laugh along and say, “I don’t care what they think anyway!” But inside I really just want to run away. And then for the rest of the day I worry about it and I feel horrible. I’m all about being different from the crowd and being yourself but sometimes it’s just hard to think that, you know?

So is this anxiety? Or am I just a really weird person? Pease let me know!

Stay beautiful,

Just a girl with no clue, is going offline.

Worst netball game but lovely people

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Hello beautiful people! I know I say this every blog post but… Thank you so much for all the likes and comments on my last post!

So, I just got back from my first netball game of the season and I feel horrible. In the first quarter I was doing really well but after that, it all just went down hill from there. I am usually a really good shooter, so my coach put me in shooting. But the problem is, every time I went to shoot, I could never get the ball in the hoop! Every time I missed, my self esteem would go lower and lower. I was getting frustrated and really annoyed, I mean, why couldn’t I just shoot properly?

By the end of the game, I had gotten two goals in. Lucky for us though, we have another shooter and I just passed the ball to her and she got it in every time she tried! So we did win but I feel as if I have somehow let the team down. Netball is really important to me and I probably just blew my chances of ever being put back in shooter again.

The only good thing that happened was that the girl I was up against was actually encouraging me to get a goal! Now that is what I call good sportsmanship. Of course she still defended me, but she knew that I was feeling sad and frustrated and she really did make me feel a little bit better… even if I only got two goals in.

At the end of the game, the Referee came up to me and said something along the lines of, “You did really well! I could tell you were getting a bit frustrated but it’s only the first game, you just have to keep trying and be confident!”

What a lovely person! She was a complete stranger yet she was being so nice to me. People like that just make the world good!

My team said I did great but I sort of knew that they all thought I did horrible. At least we won though. I guess i’m just going to have to keep practicing and practicing.

Stay beautiful,

just a girl with no clue, is going offline.